Purple Sky

     Now, I don't have time to write on this board. however, the primary reason I didn't wirite these days is I don't want to. Why? I can not tell too. I prefer writing different things here rather than my own feeling. I think I will keep writing. for what? I have no idea.  I just want to focus my class and my work now, nothing else.

      There are many things to do. two days for three chapter outline. Crazy.............. But busy makes me feel good. Today, I came to school so early just for revising my chapter outline and doing the discussion board. So I got up earlier than usual.  Mon told me to sleep earlier, get up earlier, it is better for health. I think so. But sometimes I cannot control myself. So I am always asking myself why I don't have the ability of self-control. I also don't know why the time passed so slow these days. It seems that I have to wait so long to take the business class. My tutor told me to do better in the class cause he knew the grade of my first test is not so good. Ok, I will try my best. I already didn't watch TV these two days. And I seldom chat with friends these two days.  haha......... Am I a good girl? Depend on the situation......... I suppose. I haven't done my homework.   I should work hard on it..............

    I will go to work soon. I didn't have any experiences before. I don't undestand what people would think of working or me. Honestly, I think I should learn how to get well with other people. However, I suppose I do it.  I am not a abhorrent person, right. At least I think so. For me, many stuff are needed to learn. Anyway. I need money....... haha, I am just learning to earn money.....

    I miss my friends. I want to give them a big hug. Moreover, I miss my mother very much. Now the class make me busy. I should arrange my time. I took the test today. Horrible. What kink of test it was! Probably I didn't treat seriouly. Crazy girl......  I should get better next time....  

    This stage is just let me express my feeling. Actually, I should not care about it too much. Just do myself. It is me........

hey, I made the muffin this afternoon..... It tasted very good.

I should have some talent in cooking. haha....

I am learning to cook other American food. some dessert. I am salivating.....

       My diary can't not post online. I have refreshed for many times. Unfortunately, it is useless. However, I stored it. I can post it again.

      I looked at "The Mysterous Play" these two days. It is the English version. I did learn some English from it. I like it very much. I looked for it from middle school. I didn't have the chance to look at the whole one. I did it this time. But I still want to watch the cartoon version. Maybe many people would say that cartoon is useless, but it is my special favorite. The day in the library, I looked for "The Davinci Code". It was so popular that none left.

      Today. I watched one serial. I learn a lot from it. Learn what? Probably some philosophy of life. We can talk about it anytime. But it is always easier for us to talk rather than do. I am not a person who has much determination. I will try for my future life. My tutor told me if I decide to be learn many years for the Ph.D. I should be singless for these years. I agreed with him. Somebody in that serial said, " Love is important, but it is not all in one's life. We still have many stuff to do."  After experiencing so many things, I still consider I am very naive. What I think is so simple. I don't know this world at all. I get confused all the time. Now I am trying to give myself chances to experience something new. I should be a singless person. And now, I am so quiet. It makes me feel good. I am a person can't without freedom. I think there are still hopes and dreams in my world. It should be very beautiful......To be a human being, we should be make us happy everyday. It always root in my mind.

Now I am taking the summer school.

It will make me busy, But I like this feeling.

Busy, busy and busy is what I want now..

         The only thing I want to cry for is I was gaining weight during this trip.......       

         The first day I met my friend, she took me to her friend's birthday party. It was a night club. Everybody drunk and danced there. The music was so loud. All the music it played is hit pop. At first, I didn't get used to this occasion, especially the smell of smoking. She knew I was the first time to come to that kind of place. She tried everything to make me relax. She teach me how to dance. I didn't know how to call this dance. However, I just thought this dance was so sexual, no matter for women or men. To be truth, they all danced very well, especially girls. So I don't mind learning this kind of dance. You know, I am a stupid person in dancing. It was hard for me to know how to move my body. Anyway, I have fun at the end..

      The second day, My friend took me to her school and paid a visit. Then we went to downtown of Chicago.We went shopping, watched movie, and then hang out in a resteraunt. We chatted for a long time and talked so much stuff. I know how she was going on these years and now. I liked to hang out with friend like that.

      The third day, She took me to the second highest building in Chicago. We went to the highest floor, the 96th floor. I saw a widely beautiful scenery. It is as what I saw as in the plane. Very beautiful. The lights everywhere reflect how prosperous Chicago is. And I can understand why so many people would like to live in such a beautiful city.  She asked me what I could think at the time when watching the whole Chicago. I said nothing. It was truth. My mind became blank at that time. I couldn't think anything. It is one of my habits that no thinking when watching the scenery. 

      Just only these three days made me think so many about my future. I know I can't wait. I already know my goal. I have to strive for it.

      Last paragraph to describe the trip in Chicago: I learn and think so much. And,  I never give up my dream.  

    

It was a nice trip in Chicago.

I was so happy to meet my old friend again. She has been here for almost 8 to 9 years. She's more and more beautiful and maturity. It reflects in her talking and apperence. The most common thing I thought was when I can speak English as good as her. I hope this day will come soon. I also start to set a time arragement. I urge to learn more, speak more and write more. I know I can't give up because I live in another country. I am trying to adapt myself to this society. Changing is difficult, there is no doubt for everybody in a different culture. I would like to become much more acitivity. There are still many oppoutunities for me. I should grasp each of them. I can't miss it. I should also give myself confindence.

My old friend quote one sentense, " Successful persons always do more than unseccessful persons." " Successful persons think what they are."  I knew what she wants me to be. She was encouraging me.

And I, now, I swear, I would try my best to learn English. Read more, Listen more, Write more and Talk more. There would be no embarassments to me. Talking would become my major task in the future.

Thanks to my friend very much. I was so lucky that I have so many good friend surrounding me.  I appreciate them by my heart and soul.

     On May 9th, I decided to go to Chicago in that afternoon. I had never thought that before. Just like what I said, I wanted to get away from my vexation.

      It was really a bad day. My cousin and I bought the tickets leave on 4:45. The driver was so bad that he didn't let people who waited in front of us get on the bus. Surprisingly, he selected persons. How bad he was!! Many people had bought the tickets at about 2:15 and also couldn't get on the bus. We were so angry about his behavior. What was worse, we had to wait for the next bus until 8:30.  I had spent all day long in the bus station. Horrible！

     We arrived at Chicago at 11:10.  It was the first time I had wait for the bus for such a long time. If it was possible, I would like to drive there by myself. But my aunt doesn't allow me to drive in the highway. I have driven for almost half a year. I think I have enough experiences  She should teach me. Everyone should try the first time before they can be proficient. I hate to be looked down by anybody, expecially my relatives. They should give me ecoughment rather than irony. However, I should work much harder in English than before. This is the only way for me.

        

        I come back....... I haven't written the blog for a long time. Sorry about that. Althought just few people will go to my website to browse my blog, I still exert myself writing my feeling everyday.

        Why didn't I write the blog for almost two weeks? I have gone to Chicago for vacation. I just came back for a few hours. I have many experiences in these days. They taught me a lot. expecially when meeting my old friend.

        Before going to Chicago, I had no idea at all. I just decided it at one specail moment. I thought I could buy the book on last Monday and preview it . However, something happened, I had never felt so distured, unhappy and uncapable before. I wanted to hide myself to a place no body knows. I wanted a place to cure myself. That's why I went to Chicago. I like this trip. I would like writing everything I had experienced in Chicago. Because they made my thought fertile.

      

I have many stuff to write, to say. But I would rather to keep silent.

So, I would like to translate one of my favorit songs

It is a encouraged song. I hope I will be as hopeful as what it say.

Hope everybody love this song.

 

 在晴朗的一天出发                                         To Set out in A Sunny Day

不知名的花儿都开了                                  Unknown flowers are rising

轻拂的窗都已经风干                                  Breezing windows have already dried

当你还在烦恼悲伤                                      When you still feel distubed and sad

这世界正默默生长                                      Our world is flourishing tranquilly

一定有一个什么地方                                  There should be a place

容得下我和你的梦想                                  Which can hold your and my dreams

也会受伤                                                      We will get hurt

但有希望                                                      But we still have hopes

对的人在对的地方                                      Correct people are in the correct place

当我们在晴天出发                                      Let us set out in a sunny day

看看谁早一步到达                                      To see who can achieve first

因为这里已不够我们长大                          Because here is not enough for us to grow up

不一定能继续作伴                                      Not sure we can still be together

难免会感伤                                                  It will make us sad

但我会用自己翅膀努力飞翔                      But I will exert myself to fly by my wings 

让我们同一天出发                                      Let us set out in the same day

看看外面到底多大                                      To see how large the outside world

让我们学习让自己更勇敢                          Let us learn and be more brave

就算说不一定作伴                                    Although we can't accompany with each other

我不会遗忘                                                  I will never forget it

你的爱在我的心中有不同的分量              Your love will still hold an important place in

                                                                      my heart  

  

Hey, guys. I am not so happy today.

My application for the state aid has been rejected. damn!! The fee for my everyday life?? Where are you? I tried to find some jobs to do, but the city I live is too small. I can't find anything. I want to find a partime in the Chinese resterant. But my aunt said I don't have as much as energy to do it. Really? I don't think so. Why don't they let me try? Everybody should be given a chance at the beginning. Why do they treat me as a such person? I want to have to job..... Their attitudes sometimes make me mad. I want to live with my mother. My aunt's tone sometimes is not good. Although it is her character, I still cannot adapt.

There was an composition exam this afternoon. However, I didn't fell very well. It seems that if I did it through the computer. It should be better.....  I always have more ideas when I am sitting in front of the computer. It would make me much more comfortable.

Oh, I still have a lot to review. Baby, help me. God...................

I have stomachache now..... What date is today?? Tell me....................

       I will be crazy soon....... I hate to review the stuff.....  wu....wu.......wu....... I want to cry.......

      I watched a serial this afternoon. It is one of my favorite. I have watched it serveral years before, but I just watched the end of it. Not the whole. Now, I have the chance to watch the whole one...... Excited....

      At another point,, Do I lazy? I think so ......  Another thought forced me to watch..  Help...my goddness. I am in delimma now...

      I want to state that the idiom meaning is not what I thought....... I just tell my dear what it means....That's all...........    

        I don't want my dear friend to be mad........ I would tell you the means of that idiom....

“He has no pots in and windows to throw it out, girls." 

Do you know the pot means?? the same meaning as the toilet. but it is what we use when we were little kids.

 The whole meaning is that: That boy is so poor that he doesn't have anything to throw, even a pot..   It is usually used by the mother. Because the mother doesn't want her daughter to go on dating with a poor boy.  That's all.....

Therefore, Girls. Especially my dear, wish you have a nice boyfriend!

When my friend told me, she said very fast. So, when I learned it, It took me some time.  But it is interesting.............  Althought it is not so interested by my saying.......... 

         It took me a long time to do something for my cousin....... I have wasted my time to do the dull stuff.......    Crazy.................hate it .......

lovey!!!!

      Today, I went to a Chinese resterant with my tutor and his friend, Trasi. They tried to help a family with English Language, especially their 12-year-old daughter. Trasi has tried before, but her brother stopped her and if she would do, her brother would mad to her. It sounded strange. So they wanted me to go with them and help them with the Chinese understanding. Anyway, I would not turn down my tutor's request.

     When we went to front door of the resterant, they told me to go first and tried to pursade them to accept their help. I felt nervous at that time. I am a shy girl. I am afraid to communicate with others, no matter what race he or she is. However, I had no choice. Believe it or not, I would not like to appear the timid aspect to my tutor. I went and talked with the resterant's holder. Surprisingly, I found that he was not a person as mad as they described. His last name is Lian. He told me that he was an illegal immigrant, but now he already is a green card holder. It was very lucky for him. Because as far as I know,  many of my aunt's colleagues still seaching ways to be legal immigrants.  

      I want to stop here first and express some of my ideas. Many people from the Fu Jian province are seeking many methods to go to the United State. It costs them about $80,000. It is a lot of money. They are willing to do the toilsome jobs here rather than anything in China. Many people can't understand it. When discussing this events at home, my cousin said if i have so much money, I will not go here with taking a risk of my life. As what we watch at the TV, many people die when stowing away. She also said people from the GuangDong Province don't hve the desire as that from Fu Jian Province. Is it true? Only the God knows.........Nevertheless, I have been here for almost 9 months. Looking back, there were many people discouraged to came here. Like now, I heard many news of my friends----They will marry with a guy here for coming to here soon. It is an iron matter...... It is their will and their choice. As me, I chose to come here.. For what?? How come??? I don't know. I just follow my parent's ideas. However, now I just want to pursue for a high degree and give a comfortable life to my mother. That's the most important thing I need to do...........

      Ok, go ahead with my trip today. After talking with Lian, I went out and told my tutor and Trasi to come along. They asked Lian whether he need some help with his daughter. He has already had a tutor for his daughter already... It was not a good new for my tutor. Since he had a strong enthusiasm in preparing to help her. It should be a lu lu bit upset for him. However, when he saw Lian's daughter, she was so mad to everybody. She doesn't have a temperate personality. I thought her appearance made my tutor better......Why?? Would you like teach a mad girl????  Probably not... At least, I would not.  Then we all came back...... I thought my tutor is too enthusiam. Sometime, some Chinese don't need it......

       When in the car, my tutor told Trasi that my personality and that girl are two extreme... You can not image how happy I am......  But I realize I am not as good as what he said.....  

       Anyway, I have a nice trip today

                   and,

     the most thing make me happy is that I got a full score on my psychology research paper. Wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   

Once I heard her songs, I felt comfortable. There is a feel I can't tell........... At least, She is a singer I have liked for a long time. .....................

Look, Are there something happening?

At lost. So am I .

I love her songs............ "Milk Tea"?????

Hi, My Folks,

    I want to generate another blog. I don't want to use this name.

    Busy, Busy, And Busy. It is the only word to describe me!!

    I learned an American idiom today. “He has no pots in and windows to throw it out, girls." I hope I didn't miss any words. But I will check it tomorrow from my friend.

    Haha, guess what it means.............   It is funny.

    Don't say one person is funny in every situation. Somebody will consider it as------Gay!  Haha!!!!!!!!! 

    Love you folks........

    Give me comments!! 

There are many classes to review. Much stuff has to be done. 

Crazy! I will be crazy! 

Help!!!!

       Is it my three minutes enthusiasm?

       I don't know why I will generate my own blog. Maybe I want to express my thought and my feeling. Anyway, I feel exciting for first day of my blog.

       When I was in the middle school, one of my friends told me to write the diary everyday for practicing my writing. However, I just kept doing it for a few weeks. I don't know how long I can keep writing on this blog. But I will try my best. I want to persist in doing one thing. At least one.

      I like purple. There is purple in the rainbow. I believe I will grasp the purple after raining.